Emotions/Emotional draft from 2012

I don’t like emotions. I don’t like watching the season finales of TV shows. I don’t like being left with a cliffhanger.

I like peace. Peace is confidence.Emotions are challenging. They need courage.

Even positive emotions are a stress. Sometimes they are more stressful than negative ones.

Interaction is an effort

And this, apparently, is where my crazy ramble stopped

Crazy, Stupid, Fear/Draft from 2012

Fear of failure

Fear of unknown

Fear of being rejected

Fear of being made fun of

It’s funny how the most terrifying things are not things that can physically hurt us.


One thing I should learn

I am working on it, honestly

“If someone is doing something you do not approve of and it has no effect on your life, then what do you care? Leave her alone”.

This is what I should learn, to accept people for who they are, to not be judgemental. I should learn to mind my own business and let people be, do, be with, think whatever they want.

I think the problem is that I don’t want to see people I care about get hurt, or make mistakes. But, on the other hand, it is their life. They have the right to make whatever mistakes they want. Especially if it makes them happy (well, except doing drugs :) )

And I should learn to pay less attention to little things that makes me judge. Like stupid Facebook statuses, people’s grammar mistakes (I am an extreme grammar nazy). Which is ironic, because I write in a foreign language and probably make a ton of them, but I don’t want to be judged because of them.

But I’m getting better at it. Besides, it only makes ME feel bad, and ruins MY day, which is stupid, isn’t it?

So I better go make myself a cup of tea and enjoy my day.  I hope you enjoy your day, too! ;)




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The importance of wanting

I think that everything is possible. It’s just a matter of desire and effort. Some wishes need just a little bit more effort than you usually make in order to be realized. Just a little extra push.

Some wishes remain just a dream because we don’t want to disturb the comfort of our routine, and because we are lazy, and because we will need to make other decisions after we achieve the goal.

Usually we think that realizing a dream is the end of the road. Most of the times it’s just the first step on the ladder.

Just thoughts out loud. I need to want what I want more.

There’s a good quote for that. “Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.” – Mark Twain

Do you get inspired by quotes? Sometimes I feel sad that some quotes are so overused that you get immune to the wisdom of their message

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One thing 2011 taught me

That you don’t owe anything to anyone. The only person you owe something is yourself, and it is to be happy.

Last year I was desperately trying to get everyone’s approval, do things the way it is expected from me, not be a source of problems or discomfort. But you know what? They just have to deal with it. I’m sure they can. While I was compromising my own needs and wishes, everyone else was thinking about themselves. You can not make people happy, be a difference in someone’s life while you are miserable. Or worse, forgot who you are.

I read an article and found the exact same conclusion I made in 2011.

“Start making your own happiness a priority. – Your needs matter. If you don’t value yourself, look out for yourself, and stick up for yourself, you’re sabotaging yourself. Remember, it IS possible to take care of your own needs while simultaneously caring for those around you. And once your needs are met, you will likely be far more capable of helping those who need you most.”

via Marc and Angel Hack Life – Practical Tips for Productive Living.


It is not selfish, it is the way things should be. A happy, fulfilled person won’t hurt anyone, but it sure as hell will have more resources to help someone else.

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